Friday, June 29, 2007
Did I abandon the blog? Well, not exactly. The blog needs to be honest, but I also want it to be fun and positive. So what do you do when you’ve been struggling, finding yourself in challenging situations, experiencing some times when racing the bike is not so fun? You try to make things better, and this doesn’t always involve documentation. I will say this: team racing at its best is so much more rewarding than racing for yourself – you open up possibilities, race for other people beyond what you perceived possible, and communally create and experience success and failure. At its worst, other aspects of team racing stand out: lack of control of your schedule, the patience required for the inherent inefficiency of group endeavors, the degree to which you are defined by a group that may not always represent your values, the vast quantities of time you spend with associates who are friends but likely not best friends, all while you are so busy in the rest of your life that you barely have time to see your family and dearest friends. And apathy and frustration and wanting to go home do not exactly fuel good bike racing. But here’s a quick recap:
This was the easiest Philly yet, a pretty negative race which surprised me given some teams lacking pure sprinters (Webcor and Lipton). The race still sketches me out in the beginning, but I did better with positioning than ever. I attacked on the final straightaway into Lemon and Strawberry Hills. Maybe this wasn’t the smartest, a kind of self-defeatest move that reflects my lack of confidence in my own ability to finish this bunch sprint well. My guest rider teammate Ally Brandt had told me she wanted to attack on Lemon Hill, so I brought her up, and that was it – I blew. But surprisingly I chased down the group after getting dropped, which makes me think I should have raced for the finish myself. But Ally got 16th and I’m glad to have contributed. Here's a picture of my friend and former teammate Rebecca Wellons, but you can see me in the background.